i was M.I.A.

Sorry I haven't posted on my blog in the last couple of days. Things have been way crazy. Yesterday, I found out a family friend passed away on Saturday. Hearing that was a MAJOR stinker. My parents haven't been allowing me to go to church. Well, they did this past Sunday but later told me they don't feel like the area where this church is, is safe. In other words, they don't want me to go there again. The hard part is that I actually like this church. It's a sister church to the church I went to in Fort Collins. I got invited to go to a house church tonight but again my parents said no. I was so overwhelmed yesterday by the news of my family's friend and just wanting to be in fellowship so bad, that I got the urge to return to an old habit. So I called my sister in Christ and dear friend, Gretchen, and then she stopped by. I felt so loved when Gretchen stopped by last night and gave me a hug and chatted with me for a while. I really needed that. Today, has been rough for two reasons. One, I didn't get a good night's sleep last night. Two, I am still really wanting to be in fellowship and I want fellowship so much that it hurts. I'm not willing to give up fellowship and so I'm going to keep trying to get into fellowship. I've never in my life have ever had to fight for something that I believed in and loved so much. I'm not going to give up the fight yet. Tomorow will hopefully be better because I am going to see James tomorow and will probably have two quiet times/prayer time. Also my weekend starts tomorow after my american sign language class ends. woot woot.