My "Aww shucks" moment and yayness!

So tonight after watching Shrek 2 with my family, I played Wii with my little bro Jon.
Shortly after we started playing Jon says,"Kim, I gotta tell you something."
I curiously asked,"What's up?"
Jon with a big smile on his face says,"I love you!"
Of course with a big smile on my face, I said,"Aww shucks, I love you!"

It made me think about how God says "I Love you" to us every day. How awesome is that? It makes me want to let others know that I care and God cares about them. It is also just so good to know that people care about you. When was the last time you told someone that you love them? It is important to let others know how you care about them. I want to challenge you all to tell at least 2 people a day that you love them and that God loves them. We are able to love others because God first loved us.

I also just wanted to let you know that I got asked for an interview for a job. So pray that I would get the job if it's God's will!

My view on The Body of Christ and then some

The body of Christ is so amazing to me.

"If one part suffers, every part suffers with it; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it."- 1 Corinthians 12:26

This verse is so incredibly true. If a brother or sister in Christ is bummed out about something, I feel for them and I can relate to them. If they are happy, I'm happy with them. I need my brothers and sisters, and they need me. I feel like even though I'm in Boulder, I still feel like my spiritual family in Fort Collins needs me. I have had several sisters ask me when am I moving back to Fort Collins and that they miss having me around them all the time and they need me. Sometimes when I hear them say that, I cry. I want so badly to be back in Fort Collins but I know that God has me in Boulder for this semester. God has never steered me wrong so I will follow him where ever he leads me to. Back to my main point, as believers we are all connected because we have Christ in us. Therefore, we need to be surrounded by other believers and have fellowship. It is something we need that will helps grow closer to God. When we aren't surrounded by the body of Christ, we are like a fish out of water.

I also want to take this time to give you an update on some descisions I have made. I have been praying for a while about moving back to Fort Collins and I have decided that if the Lord my God, provides me with a job, housing, and money saved up (before I were to move) then I will move back to Fort Collins. I would like to move back sometime between mid-May and mid-August. I am still on the hunt for a job in Boulder and have started to look for jobs in Fort Collins. My plan is no matter where I'm at this summer to take a english class. Then my hope is to enter the Vet Tech program at the Front Range campus in Fort Collins in August. I'm going to be calling the Vet Tech program tomorow (after school) and see what all I need to do to get into the program. I am praying that my plan goes hand in hand with God's will for my life because if it is not his will, than I will not move back. I am also planning on going to a church that is within walking distance from my house so that I can have fellowship more while I'm in Boulder. Below I have listed some prayer requests that I have but, feel free to pray about anything for me. please let me know if there is anything I can be praying for ya'll!

Prayer Requests:
- Pray that God would give me wisdom to know his will.
- Pray that my conversation with the Vet Tech program goes well.
- Pray that God would provide me with a job soon.
- Pray that God would give me grace to do well this semester.
- Pray for a willing heart to be where ever God has called me to be
- Pray for guidance.
- Pray that God would provide me with a job, housing, and money saved up (if it is his will for me to move back to Fort Collins).
- Pray that I would have fellowship on more of a daily basis.
- Pray that no matter what that I would rejoice in whatever God has me doing after this semester.

Okay this is longer that what I intended this blog post to be but oh well. Good night goobers!

Sweetly Broken and loving it!

So for a couple of days now, I have had part of the song "Sweetly Broken" stuck in my head. It's the part that goes "At the cross you beckon me. You draw me gently to my knees and I am lost for words so lost in love. I'm sweetly broken, wholly surrendered." This has been making me think about my relationship with God. It is awesome to know that even though I am weak, I can call upon my God to be my strength. I love that God chose me before time began for me to be his daughter. When I think about how God loves me, I become speechless and l feel God surrounding me with his love like a warm embrace. God is truly my everything in life. He is what keeps me going. Then this morning during the break in my math class, I read Proverbs 3:5-6 which says,"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight." If I trust God with all my heart, he will always be there for me when I need a helping hand. Wow! There is no doubt in my mind that.........GOD IS GOOD!

Love ALWAYS Forgives!

This morning I woke up and was cranky. So I decided to have a long quiet time. I listened to a talk that John Meyer did called "Lessons from the Life: The Forgiver." It was really good and I was in tears by the end of it. It reminded me of the fact that God=Love, therefore if God forgives then Love can forgive. God has forgiven me for all sins so love has forgiven me. After I listened to the talk I dug into God's word and came to Luke 5:20 which says," When Jesus saw their faith, he said,'Friend, your sins are forgiven." Two things came to mind after reading this. One was it is so sweet to have Jesus Christ my Lord and savior call me friend. I am so humbled by Jesus's compassion and unfailing love. Second thing was that ALL of my sins have been forgiven because of what Jesus did on the cross. That is pure and true love! Jesus gave his life so that I could be free and know God's love. Talk about laying down your life for someone. It so encouraging to know that Jesus, my eternal husband, will always love me and will always forgive me. Jesus, it is so sweet to be loved by you!

listening

So today I have been hanging out with my little bro Jon and it's been nice to get to spend time with him. I've been thinking about different ways to show him I care and one thing that came to mind is to listen to what he has to say. God gave me ears so I should use them. Listening to people is the simplest way to show you care and that you have an interest in their lives. I have been working on just listening to my brother and it has been way encouraging to let God's love flow through me. It's also very nice to get hear my brother talk about what he is interested in. I love getting to be a part of Jon's life. Even though he can be a total goober sometimes, I'm glad that God has put Jon in my life. God is totally using my time in Boulder for his glory and I feel like I am falling deeper in love with God everyday.

Wow God!

So this morning as I started driving to school, I said a quick prayer for safe travels because the roads were looking pretty bad. I got to broomfield and all of the sudden, a car in front of me does a 360 and almost hit several cars. Luckily, they didn't hit my car (Praise God) and no other cars were hit or damaged. Then I got about 2 minutes away from the exit I have to take to get to school and one of my windshield wiper came off. It stayed on the hood of the car so I pulled over on to the side of hwy 36 and put it back on. I ended up being 15 minutes to class but I really didn't care because I was excited to just get there in one piece. Then on my way home from school my wind shield wiper came off again. It hung on to the side of my car so I pulled over and fixed it.

God totally answered my prayer and kept me safe. I am so greatful that God protected me and that he was watching out for me. Even though it took me 45 minutes to get to school, I'm glad that those things happened. It reminded me that God really does answer prayers and that he will take care of his childeren.

crazy love

Have you ever loved someone so much that when you were thinking of someone or something else besides them that you find your hurting?
Have you ever wanted some one to just love you as you are?
Have you ever wondered if you are truly alone?
Have you ever wondered if there is anyone who will forgive you for your sins?

So often we can get distracted by things of this world we put aside our first love. My first love is God and there have been times where I have let the devil get the best of me and I put other things in front of him. Which is a sin and it hurts my heart when I do that. He has given us the gift of FORGIVENESS and he has given us the gift of GRACE. God loves us and we were CREATED IN HIS IMAGE. We are never truly alone. GOD IS ALWAYS WITH US. So that means we can't play hide and seek with him. Jesus died on the cross so the DEBT OF ALL SINS WAS PAID FOR. This always blows my mind when I think about it. Jesus loved us so much that he gave his life so that we could be free. Wow! Thats one crazy LOVE!

That's How God Uses Me In His Kingdom

That's how God uses me in his Kingdom
There's people dying everyday
There's people crying everywhere
So why am I sitting here

Chorus
I'm not Jesus who gave his life for all to live
I can not make a dead man walk again
I can not control the world around me
But I can use my heart to love
I can use my voice to say encouraging words
I use my hands to help someone in need
I can smile at someone to brighten their day
I can use my ears to listen to someone
That's how God uses me in his kingdom
Oh---------, that's how God uses me in his kingdom

There's drugs on the street
There's shootings happening
I can help an addict overcome addiction
I can try to talk a gunman out of shooting

Chorus

I am not the perfect one
But I am his servant

Chorus

God uses me

I have changed alot

Today I have been thinking about how much I have changed since accepting Christ a little over two years ago. Before accepting Christ, I used to be bisexual. Before accepting Christ, I would drink and get drunk. Before accepting Christ, I was incredibly shy. Before accepting Christ, I never knew what Love was. Before accepting Christ, all I thought about was how I could make myself look better. Before accepting Christ, I didn't know what my purpose in life was. After accepting Christ, I realized that I wasn't bisexual. A little while after accepting Christ, I decided that it wasn't glorifying to God for me to get drunk so I stopped getting drunk and I told myself I wouldn't have another alcoholic beverage until I turned 21. After accepting Christ, I became half extrovert and only half introvert. After accepting Christ, I knew that God is Love. After accepting Christ, I realized I am created in God's image and I am beautiful. After accepting Christ, I knew my purpose was to live for God.
I have also noticed that my S.I.D (Sensory Integrative Disorder) has gotten better. I'm not as worried about my auditory processing issues as I used to be. I'm not embarrassed about my motor delay or my A.D.D. anymore. I give God full credit for changing my life in so many positive ways.

Oh my goodness, I'm a goober

So spent some time with the Lord today and it was AMAZING! Let me tell you Jesus is the best man I know and I would be so lost with out him. He showed me today that I have had my priorities all mixed up like a strawberry-banna smoothie being made in the blender. He gave me two things to help me remember what order my priorites need to be in. He had me listen to a teaching that Steele Crosswhite did on time management. It was so good! In this teaching, Steele says,"God comes first, Family second, Others third, Yourself last." I have the habit of putting myself before anything or anyone. So I'm going to try as hard as I can to keep God first in my life. The second thing was an accronym that I heard a couple days ago on 19 kids and Counting:
Jesus First
Others second
Yourself last

I think we could all use a little more JOY in our lifes. I have also realized that Jesus is the only one that can satisfy all my needs.
I have also been told by several people that I am a strong woman. The truth is that it's not me that's strong, it's Christ in me. If it was just me, I would be weaker than a dead man. Christ is my strength and he is ALL the good in me.

RELAX! GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF YOU!

So last night I had two small panic attacks. I've been really overwhelmed by thinking about my future and the Devil has been putting all these "why" questions into my head. So instead of giving all my anxieties and fears up to God, I tried to handle it myself. FIRST STRIKE! Than I made the mistake of asking my D-Team in Fort Collins for prayer first (that's my subtle way of asking for help) instead of asking God first for help. SECOND STRIKE! My dear sister in Christ, Gretchen, called me to see if I was okay and instead of telling her about my struggles, I said that I was okay. THIRD STRIKE! I thought God would hurl his wrath at that moment. I woke up this morning and was Miss cranky pants. So I decided to have a long quiet time. The first verse that I read was Psalm 18:6 which says,"But in my distress I cried out to the LORD; yes, I prayed to my God for help. He heard me from his sanctuary; my cry to him reached his ears. " After reading this, I just started crying my eyes out. Then I read 1 Peter 5:7 which says,"Cast all your anxieties on him because he cares for you." It broke my heart that I had disobeyed God three times. First, I didn't lift my anxieties up to God. Second, I didn't seek him out first. Third, I lied to Gretchen and didn't share my heart with her. Luckily for me, walking with God is not like a baseball game. You can have alot of strikes and still not be out. That's called GRACE! I then read 1 Peter 5:7 and the last part stood out to me. "He cares for you." God knows I'm a goober but he still LOVES ME! My heavenly father is so GOOD. I feel so blessed that he is a forgiving and loving GOD. If I didn't have him in my life, I'd be screwed. After my quiet time, I started realizing how good he is. My parents are paying for me to go to school. Which, is such a HUGE burden lifted off my shoulders. I thought about how God has walked me through some hard times and how I wouldn't have gotten through them if he hadn't been there to be my strength. There is still some unknown about my future but I know that MY GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF ME!

The crazyness of me

So the reason why I havent posted since 2010 is because I had so much to say but didn't know how to say it. I went to Faithwalkers and that was humbling and crazy good! It was really good to have lots of fellowship and to hear so much truth. It was humbling because God showed me how weak I am and how much I need him. After Faithwalkers was over, I went to Montrose with some friends to my friend Roz's house. Let me tell you, it was the best New Year's eve and New Year's Day that I've ever had. It was so encouraging and filled with unity. Then on Monday, I got to go to my friends (Nick and Steph) wedding. That was so much fun and it was nice getting to help friends load up sound equipment afterwards. I ended up spending the night at Kristina's place. Which I also enjoyed very much! Yesterday, I got to see James but I didn't get to ride. I mucked stalls and made grain. Mucking stalls is very therapeutic for me. So that brings me to today. So far today, I have been a little discouraged. I feel like my back isn't doing well and thinking about my future is a little scary. I also have a bad case of Imissmychurchitis. God has been reminding me that I am a part of the body of Christ and how much I need the other parts of the body of Christ. I just haven't felt like I fit in at any of the churches down here in Boulder. The truth is I don't want to go to any church that isn't a Great Commission Church. I feel like God is calling me to be apart of the great commission. The sister church to my church is called the Firehouse and it's in Denver. Hopefully I can go there more often. I miss Summitview (that's my church!) so much! Summitview and Fort Collins is where I feel at home. Although I do know I will never be home untill I see Jesus face to face. So as you probably noticed I'm bummed out a little bit. Below I have some Prayer requests and if you have anything I can be praying for you let me know.

Prayer Requests:
Pray for encouragement
Pray that I would be rejoicing that God is on my side
Pray for fellowship on more of a daily basis
Pray for clarity and guidance on my future
Pray that I would let God have my whole heart