RELAX! GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF YOU!

So last night I had two small panic attacks. I've been really overwhelmed by thinking about my future and the Devil has been putting all these "why" questions into my head. So instead of giving all my anxieties and fears up to God, I tried to handle it myself. FIRST STRIKE! Than I made the mistake of asking my D-Team in Fort Collins for prayer first (that's my subtle way of asking for help) instead of asking God first for help. SECOND STRIKE! My dear sister in Christ, Gretchen, called me to see if I was okay and instead of telling her about my struggles, I said that I was okay. THIRD STRIKE! I thought God would hurl his wrath at that moment. I woke up this morning and was Miss cranky pants. So I decided to have a long quiet time. The first verse that I read was Psalm 18:6 which says,"But in my distress I cried out to the LORD; yes, I prayed to my God for help. He heard me from his sanctuary; my cry to him reached his ears. " After reading this, I just started crying my eyes out. Then I read 1 Peter 5:7 which says,"Cast all your anxieties on him because he cares for you." It broke my heart that I had disobeyed God three times. First, I didn't lift my anxieties up to God. Second, I didn't seek him out first. Third, I lied to Gretchen and didn't share my heart with her. Luckily for me, walking with God is not like a baseball game. You can have alot of strikes and still not be out. That's called GRACE! I then read 1 Peter 5:7 and the last part stood out to me. "He cares for you." God knows I'm a goober but he still LOVES ME! My heavenly father is so GOOD. I feel so blessed that he is a forgiving and loving GOD. If I didn't have him in my life, I'd be screwed. After my quiet time, I started realizing how good he is. My parents are paying for me to go to school. Which, is such a HUGE burden lifted off my shoulders. I thought about how God has walked me through some hard times and how I wouldn't have gotten through them if he hadn't been there to be my strength. There is still some unknown about my future but I know that MY GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF ME!