Change....Yuck!

I really don't like change. Which is interesting because there are alot of changes going on in my life right now. I shall explain a two of the changes going on.

The first change is my D-Team. Several people that were on my team when I moved to Boulder, are no longer on my team. One is now in a different age group (but is now my roomate). An other is living in Denver. Four of them are on different teams. All of these people, I trust and miss their presence on the team. I'm struggling with these changes and am very anxious about having to open up to new people. I'm not going to lie, I kind of don't want to open up to new people. I just don't want to open up and get close, then have them leave the team. I'm scared about this change. Luckily, there are some sisters that I know on my team that I feel comfortable opening up to.

The second change is school. I start the vet assistant program in 3 days and it'll be a different pace than taking pre-requisites. I'm anxious about it because I want to do well. If I do well I can graduate in May. Talk about pressure! I also am paying for school with money from a college fund and I want to make sure I'm not wasting my money. I also have a goal to get all A's and B's this year and I am nervous about if I can do this or not. I hope and pray that I can.

So I would greatly appreciate your prayers. Below are some specific prayer requests but feel free to pray for anything for me.

Prayer Requests:
1) Pray for Courage
2) Pray for wisdom
3) Pray that I would give my anxieties and fears to God.
4) Pray for Boldness
5) Pray for provision.
6) Pray that I would be open about my life with people on my team.
7) Pray that I would Trust God with the changes in my life
8) Pray for mercy and grace in my school work.
9) Pray that I wouldn't withdraw from my team
10) Pray that I would always be rejoicing in the Lord!

Faith and trusting God

God has been teaching me about how I need to have faith and trust him. I tend to get a little anxious when making big descisions or when there is change in my life. For example, when i applied for the Vet assistant program I didn't think that I would actually get into the program. By the grace of God, I got in!! I start classes August 22nd and I'm really excited about it. An other example is when I made the descision to move back to Fort Collins. I was so nervous about how I was going to pay for food, school, rent, utilities, and internet. God provided me with the funds I needed to do that. The third example is being back in fellowship. I am still getting used to people texting and calling me to see if i want to do something. It's very overwhelming for me to feel God's love through his children. So I have been kind of like a hermit crab at times and just don't answer texts or calls. Which I apologize for not answering or texting people back. God is showing me that it is okay to be overwhelmed because I haven't been in constant felllowship for over ayear. He is also showing me that it's not ok to be a hermit crab and hide out in my apartment all the time. So i guess i'll try to be a bit more social. :-)