descision made. phew, glad thats over.

So as some of you probably knew, I have been praying about moving back to Fort Collins at the end of the semester. Well, I have decided to not move back at the end of this semester. The way I was able to make this descision was by spending quite abit of time with God this weekend. Today he brought me to an awesome verse. "It is better if it is God's will, to suffer for good than for doing evil."-1 Peter 3:17. This verse hit me like a ton of bricks. It convicted me that I had been thinking my struggles were horrible and not God's will. But what I now realize is that I'm suffering because I am did something that was really hard but was for God's will. The main reason that I moved to Boulder was to share God's love with my family. That is a good thing and it's going to advance God's kingdom. It's hard to be in Boulder, because I don't want to be here but I know that it is God's will and he is using me to do things for his kingdom. When I do God's will, it brings me closer to him and it makes my relationship with him stronger. I'm not willing to sacrifice my relationship with him in order to do what I want to do. I want to have God use me for his kingdom's sake because what is for his glory is for my benefit. I also want to see my family accept Jesus as their Lord and Savior.
This depression that I have is not a long term thing. God will give me victory over it. My friends and family have been doing great supporting me since I was diagnosed with depression. My brothers and sisters in Christ have been great with sending me verses and asking me about my life. My family has been doing great with asking me how I'm doing. I feel blessed to have such a great support system.
God, THANK YOU for sticking by me and not leaving me when I go astray. Thank you for loving me when I don't feel loveable. Thank you for giving me brothers and sisters in Christ who care for me even when I doubt if they really care. Thank you for loving me when I'm being a goober. Thank you for being good. Thank you for creating me in the Image of you. I love that I can believe and say that GOD IS GOOD! I love that you have saved me. I love that you have placed people in my life so I can see your charactor. I love that you have a greater plan for me than I have for myself. But most of all God, I LOVE YOU!