Thinking about my future

SO I have been thinking about my future alot lately and I just wanted to ask for prayer.
Prayer Requests:
Pray God would give me wisdom to know his will.
Pray that I would trust God with my future.
Pray that I would be willing to do whatever God has called me to
Pray that I would keep God first when making decisions
Pray that I would stick with a decision after making it

Let me know how I can be praying for you!

Hey! How did I get here?

So yesterday I took my last final and it hit me like a ton of bricks. Not so much because it was my last final but because I realized I just have my internship and then I take the national exam to become a certified vet assistant. Woah, I feel like time has flown by! It's been a great semester. I have had awesome teachers and awesome classmates. It seems so crazy to be almost done.

I do have an internship at VCA animal hospital in Loveland. I start it on January 7th. It's neat because one of my classmates is doing her internship there as well and one of my teachers works there. I think it will be awesome to have there working with me.

It's by the grace of God that I am where I am. Below are some prayer requests.

Prayer Requests:
Pray for grace in doing God's will
Pray that I would get a job soon
Pray for wisdom in knowing God's will
Pray that I would trust God with my future

What's up in my life?

So I got an internship and it's in Loveland at VCA animal hospital. SO EXCITED FOR IT! It's crazy to think I just have this coming week and the following monday of finals and then I'm done with this semester. Next semester I will just have my internship and the national exam, then I will (hopefully) be a certified Vet Assistant. Crazy! God has been so good to me and I so don't deserve it at all. But the cool thing is that I don't have to earn God's love. Okay I gotta go get ready for the day but here are some prayer requests that I have.

Prayer Requests:
Pray that I would trust God with my whole life
Pray that I would get a job soon
Pray for wisdom to God's will for my life
Pray for joy in all circumstances

prayer please and thank you!

I could rant on and on but here are some prayer requests.
Prayer Requests:
Pray for wisdom to know God's will
Pray for a job
Pray that I would always be putting God first
Pray for joy
Pray that I would be content with where God has me
Pray for a willingness to follow God where ever he may lead me

update on the goober named kim (aka me)

wow! life seems to be going by quickly these days. So I had some health stuff to deal with but have been assured that it's nothing to worry about (PRAISE GOD!). School keeps me busy and I'm proud to say by the grace of God, I am getting 3 A's and 1 B (PRAISE GOD!)! I have been helping out with hospitality at the Rock and I love it! Technically I was only signed up for the month of September but I love it so much I don't want to stop. I love getting to serve the Body of Christ and meeting new people. God has been also showing me how to share my faith more and showing me that it's not so scary. Don't get me wrong I still get a little nervous about sharing my faith but praying about it seems to help. Still unemployed but I am still looking (PRAY I FIND ONE SOON). I found out that my internship next semester could be outside of Fort Collins so pray that God will provide the transportation needs to get there if that is the case.

Prayer Requests

Pray for joy in all cicumstances.
Pray that God's will would be done in my life
Pray that I would left my anxieties and fears up to God

Can it be real?

So I've noticed I tend to be really hard on myself. I'm super critical of myself. During my quiet time today, I read in a Devotional and it said, "God sees you as perfect." I thought to myself,"Kim, you are no where near perfect." Then the words GRACE and LOVE came to mind. Through God's GRACE and LOVE, God sees me as perfect. Jesus died not only for God's glory but to save me from living a life in debt to sin.

I then realized that my view of myself is distorted. God created me to be who I am. I am his child. God chose me to be adopted into his family. My favorite verse in the whole bible is Song of Songs 4:7 and it says," All beautiful you are my darling; there is no flaw in you." I've been thinking about this verse and it made me think about my image and how people see me. I've come to the conclusion that my image comes from God and that he created me in his image. My worth doesn't come from others and their thoughts.

That all got me thinking about Love. Can it be real? YES IT IS REAL! God loved me so much that he sent his one and only son to die for me. Wow! Wait, it gets better! Jesus is my eternal husband and he loves me just as I am! Double Wow!

Three years ago, I entered into a relationship with Jesus and it is the best decision I've ever made. Jesus is my knight in shining armor and he has already rescued me! He is the best man I know. It is also very comforting to know that no matter how big of a goober I might be, he still loves me. What an amazing love!

Prayer Requests

Life has been crazy since I've last blogged. Not enough time to explain it all but here are some prayer requests.

Prayer Requests:
1) Pray for wisdom in knowing God's will
2) Pray for provision
3) Pray that I would trust in God's will

Change....Yuck!

I really don't like change. Which is interesting because there are alot of changes going on in my life right now. I shall explain a two of the changes going on.

The first change is my D-Team. Several people that were on my team when I moved to Boulder, are no longer on my team. One is now in a different age group (but is now my roomate). An other is living in Denver. Four of them are on different teams. All of these people, I trust and miss their presence on the team. I'm struggling with these changes and am very anxious about having to open up to new people. I'm not going to lie, I kind of don't want to open up to new people. I just don't want to open up and get close, then have them leave the team. I'm scared about this change. Luckily, there are some sisters that I know on my team that I feel comfortable opening up to.

The second change is school. I start the vet assistant program in 3 days and it'll be a different pace than taking pre-requisites. I'm anxious about it because I want to do well. If I do well I can graduate in May. Talk about pressure! I also am paying for school with money from a college fund and I want to make sure I'm not wasting my money. I also have a goal to get all A's and B's this year and I am nervous about if I can do this or not. I hope and pray that I can.

So I would greatly appreciate your prayers. Below are some specific prayer requests but feel free to pray for anything for me.

Prayer Requests:
1) Pray for Courage
2) Pray for wisdom
3) Pray that I would give my anxieties and fears to God.
4) Pray for Boldness
5) Pray for provision.
6) Pray that I would be open about my life with people on my team.
7) Pray that I would Trust God with the changes in my life
8) Pray for mercy and grace in my school work.
9) Pray that I wouldn't withdraw from my team
10) Pray that I would always be rejoicing in the Lord!

Faith and trusting God

God has been teaching me about how I need to have faith and trust him. I tend to get a little anxious when making big descisions or when there is change in my life. For example, when i applied for the Vet assistant program I didn't think that I would actually get into the program. By the grace of God, I got in!! I start classes August 22nd and I'm really excited about it. An other example is when I made the descision to move back to Fort Collins. I was so nervous about how I was going to pay for food, school, rent, utilities, and internet. God provided me with the funds I needed to do that. The third example is being back in fellowship. I am still getting used to people texting and calling me to see if i want to do something. It's very overwhelming for me to feel God's love through his children. So I have been kind of like a hermit crab at times and just don't answer texts or calls. Which I apologize for not answering or texting people back. God is showing me that it is okay to be overwhelmed because I haven't been in constant felllowship for over ayear. He is also showing me that it's not ok to be a hermit crab and hide out in my apartment all the time. So i guess i'll try to be a bit more social. :-)

Re-learning who I am in Christ

Since moving back to Fort Collins, I have been noticing that I really need that reminder of who I am in Christ. Here are somethings that God has reminded me of thus far.
1.) I AM CREATED IN THE IMAGE OF GOD.
- I am his daughter and he created me just as he wanted me to be.
"All beautiful you are my darling there is no flaw in you."- Song of Songs 4:7

2.) I AM FORGIVEN.
- God gave his one and only son for his glory and so I could live a life free from the debt of sin.
"for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God."- Romans 3:23

3.) I AM A PART OF THE BODY OF CHRIST.
-  I have been believing a lie that I am not needed. God helped me to remember that I'm a part of the body and that all parts are needed to have the body function properly.

4.) I AM LOVED.
- I've been living with one of my pastors and his family. They have truly allowed me to come into their lives and have treated me as if I am family. Several sisters in Christ have been texting and calling me like crazy to see if I can hang out. Brothers and sisters have gone out of their way to help me in my job search.

All in all, God has reminded me that my identity lies in Christ and not in what others think of me. The greatest thing of all is that God loves me no matter how much of a goober I am.

Back in the Fort

So It has been a couple of days since I moved back to foco. I am staying with one of my pastors and his family untill August 1st. It has been a joy to be back in fellowship on a more constant basis. It is wierd though because I'm not used to people texting and calling me so much. but I am getting used to that. I do miss my brothers and parents. I know that God is calling me to be in Fort Collins and it's incredibly satisfying to obey his will. Today I will be turning in job applications so pray that i would get hired.

Last Post as a Boulder Resident

So one of the pastors at my church invited me to stay with him and his family before my lease starts at the quad. So I will leave today (7/19) for Fort Collins. I'm excited to see what God does there.

wow it's almost 1 a.m. probably should get to sleep. See ya next time Boulder! Hello Fort Collins!

update on my life

Oh my goodness, where do I start? Things have been crazy for me lately. I realized on Sunday that I have three weeks and 1 day left untill I move into my new apartment with my roomates. My roomates are my friend Kristina and my new friend Jianji. Job searching seems to take up alot of my time. Unfortunately, not alot of people in Boulder are willing to hire someone that is going to be moving in a matter of weeks. So my main focus has been looking for jobs in Fort Collins, which is where I am going to be moving to. I have also had several appointments for school in Fort Collins this summer so I've been going to those. Also have been spending time with my friends in Boulder and Denver. I have been also trying to spend some time with family. Somehow in the midst of all that, I am still able to have my quiet times (which are much needed).

There has been some fears and anxieties that have come up about my move to Fort Collins. In 1 Peter 5:7, God tells us to give all of our fears and anxieties to him because he cares for us. So I have been trying to give it all to God and sometimes it's hard. My stubborness gets in the way and I think to myself," Why bother God with my problems when he has bigger fish to fry?" But the truth is that God is Big and he can handle it. He's never done me wrong or breaken a promise so I know I can trust him.

With that said, I am also very excited about my move to Fort Collins. I am going to be starting the Vet Assistant program at Front Range Community College. I'm excited to be going back to my "home" church (Summitview Community Church). I'm excited to see all my friends that live in foco more often. I also am excited because I know in my heart that it is God's will for me to move back to Fort Collins. To me there is nothing better than doing God's will. I'm very excited to be living in the Quad with my roomates and housemates. A long time ago, the quad used to be a house but it is now four apartments.

So I think that I will sign off for now, catch ya later!

prayer requests i have

Prayer requests:
Pray for wisdom
Pray for provison
Pray for my move to fort collins
Pray that I would give my anxieties and fears to God

In awe of Jesus

I have been reading in the book of John for awhile now and it is SO GOOD!!!! Most days I find myself in tears while reading it. Not because I'm sad but because I am just so overwhelmed by how much Jesus loves me. I'm mean picture this: Jesus layed his life down at the cross for us. How amazing is that? Not only did he gave his life so we could be free, but he did it to glorify God. As some of you know, I have been dealing with depression. Lately, I've been thinking about how I have been able to get through it. The only thing that I can come up with is because of the love of Christ. He is my strength and he is my greatest cheerleader. He is there when I feel like I'm all alone. Jesus is the one who stands up for me when I can't stand up for myself. He is my eternal husband. While reading in the book of John, I've been reminded of something. I've been reminded of the fact that the Bible is the greatest love story of all time. It is so sweet to be reminded that Jesus truly loves us so much that he gave his life for us. John 15:13 says,"Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends."  NO LOVE CAN COMPARE TO THE LOVE OF JESUS CHRIST!! It is real and true love. There is no love that is more satisfying than the love of christ. Nobody can come close to being as perfect as Jesus. He is the one that will help us get through the hard times. His love and his grace are sufficient for us.

update time

so God provided big time and I will be in the vet assistant program and will be moving to Fort Collins for sure in August. I do have some prayer requests regarding life right now.

Prayer Requests:
Pray for wisdom in knowing God's will
Pray for joy
Pray for peace
Pray for provision

Pray for me pretty please

So i decided to take a leap of faith and enrolled in the Vet Assistant program. I'm trusting God will provide me with the funds to pay for it. So if you could pray for provision and that I would continue to trust him for provision, that would be great.

A song I wrote for my friend that passed away

I wrote this song for my friend that commited suicide.

I'll see you in Heaven
I don't understand it
Why did you have to go so soon
I didn't know you were hurting
I'm so sorry I wasn't there
to tell you me and God love you

Chorus
I'll see you in Heaven
You'll be okay now
You're with God now
I miss you so much
but I know that
I'll see you in Heaven someday
Someday I'll see you in Heaven
There will be no more pain and sorrow
for you anymore
I look forward to the day when
I'll see you in Heaven

I wish I could've helped you
I wish I would've hugged you more
I should've called you more
This pain hurts so bad
But in the end I know

Chorus x 2

I didn't get to say goodbye
Your life ended so soon
Remember friend, I'll see you again

Chorus

I miss you
I miss you my friend
I'll see you in Heaven

Word of the day

So I spent the day with Jesus and the word for the day was trust. One thing that Jesus brought to my attention is that I am stubborn. I tend to try and handle everything myself instead of just trusting God to do it his way. I tend to worry about things instead of just stepping back and saying,"God I TRUST you." God is definately trustworthy. He is my sole provider, healer, friend, comforter, voice of reason, and ultimately he is my heavenly father. I could go on and on about all of the roles God has in my life but for time sake I will just share thoose for now. I think of all the crazy good things God has done in my life and I realize that I have no reason not to trust God. Trusting God always is better than not trusting God. So my question for you is, are you trusting God with your life?

crazyness

so it has been a while since I last posted. Things have been really crazy. A friend of mine commited suicide and a horse that I used to help take care of passed away. Figuring out school stuff has been stressful (I still don't have it all figured out). Job hunting is a bit discouraging at the moment. I got to visit some of my fort collins friends for a couple of days. Ephesians 6:13 is blowing my mind right now with the amount of truth in it. 2 of my many cousins graduated from high school. A lot more has happened as well but I don't feel like writing a ton today. so peace out.

PRAY PLEASE!

So I have a big prayer request. I have been accepted into the Vet assistant program at Front Range Community College in Fort Collins. If I am able to get financial aid then I can officially enroll in the program and if I don't get financial aid then I can't enroll in the program. So please pray that I do get financial aid and that God's will would be done. Oh and please pray that I would obey 1 Peter 5:7 because I am very nervous about all of this.

bumming majorly

so it ends up the two jobs in Fort Collins that I was offered were scams. so i'm bumming majorly about that. I have a ton of emotions right now about it and I was trying to avoid my emotions but that didn't work out so well. If you could pray for joy and that I wouldn't be depressed about it, I would greatly appreciate your prayers. also pray for encouragement and that I wouldn't be mad at God.

Changes

Life has been pretty crazy lately. School is done May 9th. Things are crazy with that because of finals. There is also a very high probability that I won't be in school next semester due to my financial situation. I got a job and I start May 15th and I'll probably be moving back to Fort Collins. I'm going to petsit for 12 days for a couple who goes to the church I've been going to in Boulder. Below are some prayer requests.
Prayer Requests:
Pray I would trust God with the unknown
Pray for grace
Pray for wisdom
Pray for joy
Pray for Provision

job interview

I have a job interview tomorow! Pray it works out!

Struggles

Struggles are not the most enjoyable thing to go through. I am very blessed to know God and I know he won't throw anything at me that I can't handle. He is my STRENGTH. When I feel like life is getting me down, he gives me strength to carry on. He is my PROVIDER. He has provide me with everything I need to survive. He is LOVE. His love comforts me so much that I am rendered speechless just thinking about it. He has given me GRACE. I have made so many mistakes and he still cheers me on. He has given me my IDENTITY. Nothing anyone says can change who I am. I AM GOD'S CHILD! GOD IS SO GOOD!

So I'm struggling with some things right so here are some prayer requests that I have.

Prayer Requests:
Pray for strength
Pray for peace
Pray for wisdom
Pray for that I would be focused on God
Pray for Grace

update on my back

so i went to the chiropractor today and he said my 5th lumbar was inflammed and that the nerves around it were irritated.

update

chiropractor says I damaged a disk in my back, strained my neck, and bruised a bone in my hand. Pray for healing and a quick recovery!

new year's resolution not going to workout :-(

So I was walking home from church today and I fell. I have bruising on both knees and a little swelling, I scraped up my left hand and it's swollen, and I have some back pain. I'm thinking God wants me to slow down and rest a bit. I am more than happy to obey him in that. My New year's resolution was not to have any injuries in 2011. Oh well, what doesn't kill me shall make me stronger.

Prayer Requests
Pray for healing and speedy recovery
Pray for wisdom
Pray for strength
Pray for joy
Pray for fellowship
Pray for grace in school this week
Pray that I would trust in God and his willl
Pray for patience

encouraging to see

So today after church, I went into the prayer room and talked with the lady that co-leads the prayer ministry with her husband. after talking for a couple of minutes, she bursted out in tears and told me that she felt like her marriage was falling apart. So I prayed with/for her and also tried to speak encouraging words of truth to her. As I was talking to her, I noticed she started to have hope again. It felt so good to feel God's love flow through me and it was encouraging to see God using my life for his glory.

Check it out!

Check out Psalm 37! It is super encouraging!

Decision made

So I have been going to this church called cornerstone and they asked me a week ago if I would lead a life group. I told them I would pray about it. So after much prayer and counsel, I have decided not to become a life group leader. I just felt it wasn't biblical for me to be leading men. I also feel like I'm not 100% commited to Cornerstone and that it also wouldn't be fair to the church if I were to start leading and then end up moving back to Fort Collins this summer.

"PRAISE GOD" moment and a song I wrote

So I have a summer job! So excited and praising God for it. Below is a a song I wrote on monday and yesterday. It's about how we can get distracted by things in this world and we need God to bring us back to him.
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Tame my wandering heart

My heart is always wandering
Bring me back to you
I feel so wrong to feel this way
Focus my heart on you

Chorus
Break me of my insecurities
Free me from my sin
Don't let the lies corrupt me
Hear this sinner's cry for help
I don't want to live for me
I want you to be glorified in me
Only you can tame my wandering heart
Tame my wandering heart
so that I can honor you
God please tame my wandering heart

I'm drowning in a sea of sin
Let your grace save me from death
Your love is overwhelming me

Chorus x2

Satisfy my soul
like only you can
Love me
like only you can

Chorus

Tame my wandering heart

In the middle of this beautiful chaos we call life

     Do you ever feel like you are just running in circles? Lately, I have felt like that. The only reason why I haven't gone mentally insane yet is God's amazing grace. Oh Lord, I would be lost without God! There are three things he has totally been giving me grace in.
     The first thing is decision making. Often times, I get so lost in things that I want for my life that I forget to say,"Okay God, what do you want me to do?" Like I said in my previous blog post, I am in the process of trying to make some decisions about some things in my life. I haven't made any decisions yet but I'm hoping to have decisions made by Sunday. God is very patiently and lovingly, walking me through it all.
     The second thing is keeping in touch with family and friends who I don't see very often. This semester I feel like I have been horrible at keeping in touch with my Foco friends and my extended family. God recently brought me to the verse that talks about not giving up meeting with others and it just convicted me. So if I haven't talked to you in a while, please forgive me for not keeping in touch.
     The third thing is spending time with God. I get so caught up in okay, I got to do this and I got to do that. I often forget to sit down and talk to God. Yes I do have daily quiet times but I often rush through them so I can get ready for school. I am going to try my best to slow down and just listen to what God has to say. God is one smart dude so I should definately pay attention to what he has to say.

I hope you are doing well and staying connected with God!

Pray for me please and thank you!

So I have some things going on in my life right now that I need to make descisons about. I have chosen to not say on here what they are untill I make a descision. In the mean time, you can pray for me!

Prayer Requests
Pray for wisdom in knowing God's will
Pray for guidance
Pray for willingness to do whatever God has me doing
Pray that God's will would be done in my life
Pray whatever I decide would glorify God

rough day

Today has been a rough day for me. I have just felt cranky and like a big bag of sin. Today in my bio class we had a sub who confused everyone. Anytime anybody would ask her a question, we would all get confused even more. I have also felt like I can't do anything right. I called my chiropractor because the last couple of days my back, my neck, and my hips have been hurting. It's not the worst pain ever but it's enough to where I have to modify activites. My chiropractor said that he thinks I should start going to physical therapy. That's not exactly what I wanted to hear. Pray for joy and that I would trust God knows what he is doing.

Glory to God

I got 100% on two assignments in my Public Speaking class!!!!!!!!! I owe all the glory to God!

Be Quiet

Today I realized I talk alot. I feel like God is telling me that I need to not talk as much and just listen. I tend talk alot when I'm nervous or scared. I really need to just be quiet and let God do the talking/work. I feel like sometimes we get so busy with the world and the things around us, We forget that God is trying to teach us something. He wants to talk and be with us daily. I don't know about you but I don't want to miss a chance to hear from God or to be with God . We also tend to want to do it all ourselves but the tuth is WE CAN'T DO IT ALL. God can do it all! So why not let him? He wants to help us and he wants to do things for us. We need to let God do his work in our lives.

"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."- 1 Peter 5:7

"Be still and know that I am God."- Psalm 46:10

"Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life, and I will live in the house of the LORD forever."- Psalm 23:6

Okay God! Do your thing!

also pray for provision and guidance!

Some Verses for you

Keep you lives from the love money and be content with what you have, because God has said,"Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." So we say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?" - Hebrews 13:5-6

Don't put your confidence in powerful people; there is no help for you there. -Psalm 146:3

I delight to do your will, O my God, and Your law is within my heart.- Psalm 40:8

Prayer Requests:
Pray for wisdom!
Pray for strength!
Pray for more fellowship!

Let me know if you have any prayer requests!

My life is crazy but I love it! I love it because I have God. He walks me through everything and he is always leading me towards him. He is the best thing in my life. He has given me so much and I don't deserve any of it! Without God, I wouldn't be the person I am today. Choosing to follow God was the best decision I ever made. I love him and nobody can truly satisfy me like he can. I am his daughter and he is my heavenly father!

Hey friends, I am needing some prayer so if you could pray for me that would be great! Let me know how I can pray for you!

Prayer Requests:
Pray for wisdom!
Pray for provision!
Pray for strength!

"The Motions"-Matthew West

Francesca Battistelli - This Is The Stuff

Overwhelmed and Humbled by God

So the last couple of days, I've been overwhelmed and cranky in the morning. I have been a goober and haven't been lifting it up to God. Today, God humbled me by showing me that I need to obey 1 Peter 5:7! God cares for me and wants me to cast all my anxieties on him. Then God brought me to Francesca Battistelli's song called "This is the stuff." After listening to it, I remembered that God uses the tough times to make us depend on him. I have no clue what God has planned for me but I know that I am not supposed to know everything he has planned for me. I also realized that I need to trust in God and that he will take care of me.

Prayer Requests
Pray for joy!
Pray for peace!
Pray for strength!
Pray that I would get into the Vet Tech program and/or the Vet Assistant program at FRCC!
Pray for wisdom!
Pray God would provide me with a job!
Pray God would when he has me moving back to Fort Collins!
Pray that I would keep my focus on God!
Pray for grace in my classes this semester!
Pray I would let God take care of me!
Pray for my cousins Ashley, Nikki, Devri, Cathy, and Linds. They are pregnant!
Pray that God would heal my brother, Tommy's hand

Check out Romans 15:13! Also let me know if you have any prayer requests!

Prayer Requests

So I am totally overwhelmed (in a good way) by somethings going on right now and could really use some prayer.
Prayer Requests
Pray for a job in Boulder
Pray that God would give me wisdom to know his will
Pray that I would remember 1 Peter 5:7
Pray for grace for this semester
Pray that I would get into the Vet Tech or the Vet Assistant program
Pray that I would rejoice in all situations
Pray that I would trust God to provide for me
Pray that I'd remember to ask God for help when I need it
Pray that I'd remember that God is the ultimate judge
Pray that God would allow me to see people as he sees them
Pray that God would provide me with gas money so I can continue to get to school
Pray that God would show me when this summer I am supposed to move to Foco
Pray for strength and joy
Pray for peace in my heart

Missing Foco

So as I sit in the library at FRCC Larimer Campus, I'm realizing how much I have missed Fort Collins. Alot of good memories have come rushing back to me and I can't help but smile. I realize that by just being in Fort Collins, I am happier. I have a Vet Tech info meeting tonight and I came up early to see some friends. I am excited to see them because I haven't seen some of them in a while. On my way up here, I got to stop by and see James. It was so good to see him and give him a hug. I'll see him tomorow after I am done with class. Got a couple prayer requests so if you have a free moment, feel free to pray for me.

Prayer Requests:
Pray that the vet tech meeting goes well.
Pray that God would provide me with wisdom to know his will.
Pray that God would bless my time in Foco this afternoon/evening.
Pray for focus
Pray that I would get the Laundry attendant position in Boulder

God you are here with me

Humbly I come, Humbly I seek
You are everything I need and I
am caught in your infinite grace
God you are here

Chorus
God you are here with me
You have poured your love into
this broken heart of mine
You are here with me untill the end
You walk me through the chaos of life
God you pick me up and build me up again
You are the good in this life
You are here with me
You are my strength when I'm weak
God, you are here with me

I confess, I need so
On my own, I can't do anything
Without you, I would live no more

Chorus

You give me hands to do your will
You give me eyes to see you
You give me ears to hear you
How can I deny you?

Chorus

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I wrote this song because yesterday I got out of class and my car wouldn't start. Instead of just asking God for help, I tried to fix it myself at first. Once I threw my hands up in the air and asked him for help, he helped me. So I need to ask him for help more often instead of trying to do it all myself.

My "Aww shucks" moment and yayness!

So tonight after watching Shrek 2 with my family, I played Wii with my little bro Jon.
Shortly after we started playing Jon says,"Kim, I gotta tell you something."
I curiously asked,"What's up?"
Jon with a big smile on his face says,"I love you!"
Of course with a big smile on my face, I said,"Aww shucks, I love you!"

It made me think about how God says "I Love you" to us every day. How awesome is that? It makes me want to let others know that I care and God cares about them. It is also just so good to know that people care about you. When was the last time you told someone that you love them? It is important to let others know how you care about them. I want to challenge you all to tell at least 2 people a day that you love them and that God loves them. We are able to love others because God first loved us.

I also just wanted to let you know that I got asked for an interview for a job. So pray that I would get the job if it's God's will!

My view on The Body of Christ and then some

The body of Christ is so amazing to me.

"If one part suffers, every part suffers with it; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it."- 1 Corinthians 12:26

This verse is so incredibly true. If a brother or sister in Christ is bummed out about something, I feel for them and I can relate to them. If they are happy, I'm happy with them. I need my brothers and sisters, and they need me. I feel like even though I'm in Boulder, I still feel like my spiritual family in Fort Collins needs me. I have had several sisters ask me when am I moving back to Fort Collins and that they miss having me around them all the time and they need me. Sometimes when I hear them say that, I cry. I want so badly to be back in Fort Collins but I know that God has me in Boulder for this semester. God has never steered me wrong so I will follow him where ever he leads me to. Back to my main point, as believers we are all connected because we have Christ in us. Therefore, we need to be surrounded by other believers and have fellowship. It is something we need that will helps grow closer to God. When we aren't surrounded by the body of Christ, we are like a fish out of water.

I also want to take this time to give you an update on some descisions I have made. I have been praying for a while about moving back to Fort Collins and I have decided that if the Lord my God, provides me with a job, housing, and money saved up (before I were to move) then I will move back to Fort Collins. I would like to move back sometime between mid-May and mid-August. I am still on the hunt for a job in Boulder and have started to look for jobs in Fort Collins. My plan is no matter where I'm at this summer to take a english class. Then my hope is to enter the Vet Tech program at the Front Range campus in Fort Collins in August. I'm going to be calling the Vet Tech program tomorow (after school) and see what all I need to do to get into the program. I am praying that my plan goes hand in hand with God's will for my life because if it is not his will, than I will not move back. I am also planning on going to a church that is within walking distance from my house so that I can have fellowship more while I'm in Boulder. Below I have listed some prayer requests that I have but, feel free to pray about anything for me. please let me know if there is anything I can be praying for ya'll!

Prayer Requests:
- Pray that God would give me wisdom to know his will.
- Pray that my conversation with the Vet Tech program goes well.
- Pray that God would provide me with a job soon.
- Pray that God would give me grace to do well this semester.
- Pray for a willing heart to be where ever God has called me to be
- Pray for guidance.
- Pray that God would provide me with a job, housing, and money saved up (if it is his will for me to move back to Fort Collins).
- Pray that I would have fellowship on more of a daily basis.
- Pray that no matter what that I would rejoice in whatever God has me doing after this semester.

Okay this is longer that what I intended this blog post to be but oh well. Good night goobers!

Sweetly Broken and loving it!

So for a couple of days now, I have had part of the song "Sweetly Broken" stuck in my head. It's the part that goes "At the cross you beckon me. You draw me gently to my knees and I am lost for words so lost in love. I'm sweetly broken, wholly surrendered." This has been making me think about my relationship with God. It is awesome to know that even though I am weak, I can call upon my God to be my strength. I love that God chose me before time began for me to be his daughter. When I think about how God loves me, I become speechless and l feel God surrounding me with his love like a warm embrace. God is truly my everything in life. He is what keeps me going. Then this morning during the break in my math class, I read Proverbs 3:5-6 which says,"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight." If I trust God with all my heart, he will always be there for me when I need a helping hand. Wow! There is no doubt in my mind that.........GOD IS GOOD!

Love ALWAYS Forgives!

This morning I woke up and was cranky. So I decided to have a long quiet time. I listened to a talk that John Meyer did called "Lessons from the Life: The Forgiver." It was really good and I was in tears by the end of it. It reminded me of the fact that God=Love, therefore if God forgives then Love can forgive. God has forgiven me for all sins so love has forgiven me. After I listened to the talk I dug into God's word and came to Luke 5:20 which says," When Jesus saw their faith, he said,'Friend, your sins are forgiven." Two things came to mind after reading this. One was it is so sweet to have Jesus Christ my Lord and savior call me friend. I am so humbled by Jesus's compassion and unfailing love. Second thing was that ALL of my sins have been forgiven because of what Jesus did on the cross. That is pure and true love! Jesus gave his life so that I could be free and know God's love. Talk about laying down your life for someone. It so encouraging to know that Jesus, my eternal husband, will always love me and will always forgive me. Jesus, it is so sweet to be loved by you!

listening

So today I have been hanging out with my little bro Jon and it's been nice to get to spend time with him. I've been thinking about different ways to show him I care and one thing that came to mind is to listen to what he has to say. God gave me ears so I should use them. Listening to people is the simplest way to show you care and that you have an interest in their lives. I have been working on just listening to my brother and it has been way encouraging to let God's love flow through me. It's also very nice to get hear my brother talk about what he is interested in. I love getting to be a part of Jon's life. Even though he can be a total goober sometimes, I'm glad that God has put Jon in my life. God is totally using my time in Boulder for his glory and I feel like I am falling deeper in love with God everyday.

Wow God!

So this morning as I started driving to school, I said a quick prayer for safe travels because the roads were looking pretty bad. I got to broomfield and all of the sudden, a car in front of me does a 360 and almost hit several cars. Luckily, they didn't hit my car (Praise God) and no other cars were hit or damaged. Then I got about 2 minutes away from the exit I have to take to get to school and one of my windshield wiper came off. It stayed on the hood of the car so I pulled over on to the side of hwy 36 and put it back on. I ended up being 15 minutes to class but I really didn't care because I was excited to just get there in one piece. Then on my way home from school my wind shield wiper came off again. It hung on to the side of my car so I pulled over and fixed it.

God totally answered my prayer and kept me safe. I am so greatful that God protected me and that he was watching out for me. Even though it took me 45 minutes to get to school, I'm glad that those things happened. It reminded me that God really does answer prayers and that he will take care of his childeren.

crazy love

Have you ever loved someone so much that when you were thinking of someone or something else besides them that you find your hurting?
Have you ever wanted some one to just love you as you are?
Have you ever wondered if you are truly alone?
Have you ever wondered if there is anyone who will forgive you for your sins?

So often we can get distracted by things of this world we put aside our first love. My first love is God and there have been times where I have let the devil get the best of me and I put other things in front of him. Which is a sin and it hurts my heart when I do that. He has given us the gift of FORGIVENESS and he has given us the gift of GRACE. God loves us and we were CREATED IN HIS IMAGE. We are never truly alone. GOD IS ALWAYS WITH US. So that means we can't play hide and seek with him. Jesus died on the cross so the DEBT OF ALL SINS WAS PAID FOR. This always blows my mind when I think about it. Jesus loved us so much that he gave his life so that we could be free. Wow! Thats one crazy LOVE!

That's How God Uses Me In His Kingdom

That's how God uses me in his Kingdom
There's people dying everyday
There's people crying everywhere
So why am I sitting here

Chorus
I'm not Jesus who gave his life for all to live
I can not make a dead man walk again
I can not control the world around me
But I can use my heart to love
I can use my voice to say encouraging words
I use my hands to help someone in need
I can smile at someone to brighten their day
I can use my ears to listen to someone
That's how God uses me in his kingdom
Oh---------, that's how God uses me in his kingdom

There's drugs on the street
There's shootings happening
I can help an addict overcome addiction
I can try to talk a gunman out of shooting

Chorus

I am not the perfect one
But I am his servant

Chorus

God uses me

I have changed alot

Today I have been thinking about how much I have changed since accepting Christ a little over two years ago. Before accepting Christ, I used to be bisexual. Before accepting Christ, I would drink and get drunk. Before accepting Christ, I was incredibly shy. Before accepting Christ, I never knew what Love was. Before accepting Christ, all I thought about was how I could make myself look better. Before accepting Christ, I didn't know what my purpose in life was. After accepting Christ, I realized that I wasn't bisexual. A little while after accepting Christ, I decided that it wasn't glorifying to God for me to get drunk so I stopped getting drunk and I told myself I wouldn't have another alcoholic beverage until I turned 21. After accepting Christ, I became half extrovert and only half introvert. After accepting Christ, I knew that God is Love. After accepting Christ, I realized I am created in God's image and I am beautiful. After accepting Christ, I knew my purpose was to live for God.
I have also noticed that my S.I.D (Sensory Integrative Disorder) has gotten better. I'm not as worried about my auditory processing issues as I used to be. I'm not embarrassed about my motor delay or my A.D.D. anymore. I give God full credit for changing my life in so many positive ways.

Oh my goodness, I'm a goober

So spent some time with the Lord today and it was AMAZING! Let me tell you Jesus is the best man I know and I would be so lost with out him. He showed me today that I have had my priorities all mixed up like a strawberry-banna smoothie being made in the blender. He gave me two things to help me remember what order my priorites need to be in. He had me listen to a teaching that Steele Crosswhite did on time management. It was so good! In this teaching, Steele says,"God comes first, Family second, Others third, Yourself last." I have the habit of putting myself before anything or anyone. So I'm going to try as hard as I can to keep God first in my life. The second thing was an accronym that I heard a couple days ago on 19 kids and Counting:
Jesus First
Others second
Yourself last

I think we could all use a little more JOY in our lifes. I have also realized that Jesus is the only one that can satisfy all my needs.
I have also been told by several people that I am a strong woman. The truth is that it's not me that's strong, it's Christ in me. If it was just me, I would be weaker than a dead man. Christ is my strength and he is ALL the good in me.

RELAX! GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF YOU!

So last night I had two small panic attacks. I've been really overwhelmed by thinking about my future and the Devil has been putting all these "why" questions into my head. So instead of giving all my anxieties and fears up to God, I tried to handle it myself. FIRST STRIKE! Than I made the mistake of asking my D-Team in Fort Collins for prayer first (that's my subtle way of asking for help) instead of asking God first for help. SECOND STRIKE! My dear sister in Christ, Gretchen, called me to see if I was okay and instead of telling her about my struggles, I said that I was okay. THIRD STRIKE! I thought God would hurl his wrath at that moment. I woke up this morning and was Miss cranky pants. So I decided to have a long quiet time. The first verse that I read was Psalm 18:6 which says,"But in my distress I cried out to the LORD; yes, I prayed to my God for help. He heard me from his sanctuary; my cry to him reached his ears. " After reading this, I just started crying my eyes out. Then I read 1 Peter 5:7 which says,"Cast all your anxieties on him because he cares for you." It broke my heart that I had disobeyed God three times. First, I didn't lift my anxieties up to God. Second, I didn't seek him out first. Third, I lied to Gretchen and didn't share my heart with her. Luckily for me, walking with God is not like a baseball game. You can have alot of strikes and still not be out. That's called GRACE! I then read 1 Peter 5:7 and the last part stood out to me. "He cares for you." God knows I'm a goober but he still LOVES ME! My heavenly father is so GOOD. I feel so blessed that he is a forgiving and loving GOD. If I didn't have him in my life, I'd be screwed. After my quiet time, I started realizing how good he is. My parents are paying for me to go to school. Which, is such a HUGE burden lifted off my shoulders. I thought about how God has walked me through some hard times and how I wouldn't have gotten through them if he hadn't been there to be my strength. There is still some unknown about my future but I know that MY GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF ME!

The crazyness of me

So the reason why I havent posted since 2010 is because I had so much to say but didn't know how to say it. I went to Faithwalkers and that was humbling and crazy good! It was really good to have lots of fellowship and to hear so much truth. It was humbling because God showed me how weak I am and how much I need him. After Faithwalkers was over, I went to Montrose with some friends to my friend Roz's house. Let me tell you, it was the best New Year's eve and New Year's Day that I've ever had. It was so encouraging and filled with unity. Then on Monday, I got to go to my friends (Nick and Steph) wedding. That was so much fun and it was nice getting to help friends load up sound equipment afterwards. I ended up spending the night at Kristina's place. Which I also enjoyed very much! Yesterday, I got to see James but I didn't get to ride. I mucked stalls and made grain. Mucking stalls is very therapeutic for me. So that brings me to today. So far today, I have been a little discouraged. I feel like my back isn't doing well and thinking about my future is a little scary. I also have a bad case of Imissmychurchitis. God has been reminding me that I am a part of the body of Christ and how much I need the other parts of the body of Christ. I just haven't felt like I fit in at any of the churches down here in Boulder. The truth is I don't want to go to any church that isn't a Great Commission Church. I feel like God is calling me to be apart of the great commission. The sister church to my church is called the Firehouse and it's in Denver. Hopefully I can go there more often. I miss Summitview (that's my church!) so much! Summitview and Fort Collins is where I feel at home. Although I do know I will never be home untill I see Jesus face to face. So as you probably noticed I'm bummed out a little bit. Below I have some Prayer requests and if you have anything I can be praying for you let me know.

Prayer Requests:
Pray for encouragement
Pray that I would be rejoicing that God is on my side
Pray for fellowship on more of a daily basis
Pray for clarity and guidance on my future
Pray that I would let God have my whole heart